Dry Lands and Gods Promises


I am a person who loves the study the word of God and loves to read books. I love getting the feeling of real life people that have saw miracles happen, and that quite potentially be in the same predicament that I am in. Its rather incredible that these people were able to live for God under such unfortunate circumstances, to be beheaded, all in the name of Jesus. Fear of dying and fear not losing everything was an amazing story.

I have read and been trying to listen to sermons on and off again for the past year. Having a rough year, I would try to focus on Gods voice and what to do with my life in the future and what He is doing now. I have recently moved to my moms house due to financial issues. I would have to live with my step dad in which he is very violent and controlling. Before I was used to it because I have been living with it for quite a long time. Now, I am deeply afraid because when looking back on it, things that he has done to me are not normal from a “traditional family.” I have been struggling, been harassing friends feeling like I need to fill up, losing tons of sleep at night, crying in my room alone, being afraid to speak to him or my mom because I knew I was going to be yelled at for something. There was no running from it. I easily became depressed, angry, lashing out on people, confused, upset, and most importantly, unable to think of the plan that God has for me.

If I am following Your plan God, what are you doing and why is it so frustrating?

1 Kings 17:3-8 “Depart from here and turn eastward and hide yourself by the brook Cherith, which is east of the Jordan. You shall drink from the brook, and I have commanded the ravens to feed you there.” So he went and did according to the word of the Lord. He went and lived by the brook Cherith that is east of the Jordan. And the ravens brought him bread and meat in the morning, and bread and meat in the evening, and he drank from the brook. And after a while the brook dried up, because there was no rain in the land. The Widow of Zarephath Then the word of the Lord came to him, “Arise, go to Zarephath, which belongs to Sidon, and dwell there. Behold, I have commanded a widow there to feed you.”
So here God was, and he is feeding Elijah and giving him water from the brook, and the brook dries up. Main water supply dries up and you don’t know what to do and how to live is very very scary. It means that you either need to think of something, or that you need to start trusting in Gods perfect will. I personally do something, and its probably stupid…not going to lie.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Why is this in Proverbs? Maybe because Gods will is perfect, your will is not. Basic. Simple. Admitting that I mess up on this makes me think that I need to restart my thinking process when it comes to God and His perfect will. I stated this at the beginning of the post: What is God doing now? He is saving me from my previous sin by his Son, my brother Jesus! He provided me a place to one of the richest countries in the world! He gave me the opportunity to taste, touch, smell, to worship Him, to experience His FULL goodness by sharing why that any of this stuff matters to anyone who reads, who either subscribes to this blog or anybody who reads this on twitter. God loves you, be sure to receive that love.
Jereimiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope
I was talking to my pastors wife and even though that this is a popular verse I need to cling on it because this is where trust comes in. If I want healing, I need trust. It will help me in the future with forgiveness with my step dad, and my real dad. It starts with God, and even though that there is a dry area and no water to drink, God will direct a way and He will do it with His love and His guidance and His grace.
How did God help you in a dry area?

Master of Disguises

Being young is tough, especially when you have talent. Many opportunities can make you, break you, and hurt you. Many people seek after people; getting discovered or making dreams. Many people have dreams and many get them taken away. I have a dream that I would produce dance music. I remember when I was in college I was hooked on hard base techno. It changed my life. It made me dance all the time and that is all I thought about. I was on YouTube and connected with this guy who owned his own label. I have a dream of making my own music and producing it. It would be great, however I would be in the secular society all the time and would be hard to live as a Christian. I will come back to this later.

As I previously stated in a couple of blogs, I had a rough go that changed my perception on how I viewed God and how I viewed the church as a whole. It challenged me and left me heartbroken. It misconstrued a lot of peoples mental decisions and it showed that people aren’t who they seem. I remember years ago there was this girl who had so much talent at church. She was younger at the time and she was a power house when she sang. It was amazing to see her with so much talent and God was in the center of her life. It was clear it was evident.

I recall this girl told me about a situation that had her and her mom over the edge. Her mom was fearing for her life. Her mom was involved in a domestic abuse and there was no choice but to leave. The mother was rather upset, and so she was trying to get help from the pastor. The pastor told her that she had to stay. Thankfully she didn’t listen or they would have been seriously injured. However, the pastor has no contact with the family and that resulted in a lot of hurt, frustration, anger, sadness, lonliness, drinking, drugs, and abandoning God.

While I was dealing with my own stuff, I saw her and had a conversation at the coffee shop. She said to me that she had a hard time not believing in God. I instantly had tears on my face. How can someone who was so talented go to the world? Its very upsetting to see someone that has so much pains and so much hurts that can’t get past peoples brokenness. I bet this is how she is feeling:

Psalm 22:1-2 My God, My God, why have You forsaken me? Far from my deliverance are the words of my groaning. Oh my God, I cry by day, but You do not answer; and by night I have no rest.

Anyone whoidentifies with this scripture knows what I am talking about. Anyone who has been a Christian and who tells the truth has struggled with unbelief. It is very devastating that people that were for Jesus have walked away from the Christian faith. A “wolf in sheeps clothing” who claim to be for Christ can also be the biggest danger if they know what they do. I find, from experience, sometimes being over zealous can get in the way. Sometimes being over zealous does more damage then it does good. Sometimes people give up to easy. Guilty as charged. So what do we do about this?

1 Thessalonians 5:3-12 While they are saying, “Peace and safety!” then destruction will come upon them suddenly like labor pains upon a woman with child, and they will not escape. But you, brethren, are not in darkness, that the day would overtake you like a thief; for you are all sons of light and sons of day. We are not of night nor of darkness; so then let us not sleep as others do, but let us be alert and sober. For those who sleep do their sleeping at night, and those who get drunk get drunk at night. But since we are of the day, let us be sober, having put on the breastplate of faith and love, and as a helmet, the hope of salvation. For God has not destined us for wrath, but for obtaining salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us, so that whether we are awake or asleep, we will live together with Him. Therefore encourage one another and build up one another, just as you also are doing.

In regards to this situation, the girl turned out to love the party lifestyle. As for me, I am now have no interest in producing music for this record label. My life is living for Christ. I love Him, therefore I want others to love Him. I want to show her that there is no other way. Jesus loves you so much that he wants you for himself, and loves you enough to make a decision for you to choose him or not. For us as Christians assume that we are good stewards and wanting to bear fruit, we need to make sure that A) we are able to evangelize, despite the brokenness that we have and B) take what we know and use it for Gods glory. Lives are too precious to spend an eternity in hell because of mans poor choices.

I find that people need to take others where they are at and work with them. Always said that, always wanting to assist, always want people to try to love others and give them a rock to stand on. Truth and being genuine always comes from relationship. It always comes from love and it always comes from Jesus. Jesus is the way the truth and the life, no one can get to heaven or the Father except through JESUS. Let Him be your God, let Him cry with you. Let Him love you. So readers, I need advise.

How do you give the message to the brokenhearted?

Salvation Story

Coming from a home where you have no father is hard. Coming from a standpoint where you don’t know who you are or why you seem that you don’t exist is even harder. I was that person. Sometimes, I still am. Its a very upsetting place in which you don’t have a male role model in your life.

Before we get any further let me tell you a little bit about me. My name is Matt. I now live in a small town in Canada. My mom was seventeen when she had me and she struggled a lot to keep me. I grew up poor, not having much just because my mom had to take care of me. It was hard.

I grew up not having much, I was influenced in with some people that have a similar story to me. I used to hang out with really messed up people. I had one friend who got stabbed nine times, had another friend who overdosed on oxy contins, and had another hold a knife to my throat. I still look back saying “hey that could be me. I could be dead.” By the grace of God I am not.

I used to do a lot of parties. I tried ecstasy once. I remember being up for thirty six hours straight and being in the streets of Toronto without any sleep. I even remember me going on the streets of downtown Toronto going into clubs and partying. I was in the scariest place possible and I didn’t know what to do or how to stop it. It felt good, but I knew I didn’t want to stay there.

I went to a place called the Recreation Outreach Center (The ROC) where I was first experienced with a friend named Troy. The ROC basically placed teens in where they all can hang out and have fun. It was a way to get kids off the streets. That is where I had my life changed. God in Troy was leading me to the gospel. I was understanding a little piece of what I was trying to find and was really getting interested in what Troy was showing me. I was baptized on November 11th (will never forget that day) in which one of my friends was in a fatal car accident. I could have easily been in that car. However, while I am still missing her I am so thankful that I am alive today. Only by the grace of God that I am still here.

At the beginning of my post, it was read that I didn’t have a dad. I still don’t, but I have a Father. I encourage everyone to follow Jesus, for He is the way, truth, and the life.

Wretched Man

Have you ever felt that you do more talking? Have you ever noticed that people had some sort of non loving features about them? I feel that. And I am guilty just as anyone else. I probably can say a lot of things about someone, or I can say a lot about helping others that I forget why I am doing it for. I was performing a religion, trying to do an act to please God. Not thinking of grace I am going against a lot of people, mainly God. Sure, points that I have were validated, but that doesn’t mean I rant about it.

So guess what, I am not good enough for God

Romans 7:21-25 says: So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in Gods law, but I see another law at work in the members of my body, wagering in war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God-through Jesus Christ our Lord!

See the big issue is this, I fight sin (or try to) and because the speck in my eye (Matthew 7) I see others flaws than my own. I don’t see that I can divide more than I can multiply, I don’t love the way Jesus loves…just because I don’t have a window of opportunity open. I even step on toes and bash people when I don’t need to (unintentionally). The biggest thing to do is to help other people. Be open, be around, and be loving. I need to do that more often and so does the next guy

Look around, there is people around you, there is people on twitter that follow you who need help and that are looking. You ignore them, and pretend they aren’t there. There is a homeless guy that you walk by every day or there is someone in your church that is wanting to know God and they need help and someone to teach them. Be that window of opportunity.

The biggest thing to everyone is that Jesus is Lord and he saves. If I can get saved, so can you. THIS IS A COMMUNITY WHO NEEDS OTHERS! So lets be that window and love a little more. More mouth closed and more opening ears and listen. Lets tell the world about Jesus

What can you do better to help? I am closing with a song Monk and Neagle – The Twenty First Time

Identity Crisis

Everyone wants or wanted to be someone. What did you want to be when you grow up? I wanted to be a teacher. When I was in school, I wanted to be a teacher. I was a little teachers pet. I thought it was a fun job looking people and I wanted to teach. I got along with MOST of the teachers in elementary school. However, when I was in high school, my motivation switched. I started to get into trouble, did not care about school and it would just be awesome for not me to put up with the teachers that I did have. I was seen as a “problem.” My friends all had identities too. A lot of them smoked weed, a lot of them drank, a lot of them had family issues, and a lot of them were either thugs or toy thugs.


Now that I am a Christian, I try and reflect as much as possible to my creator. However, I have tendencies to try and make it about me. For example, I have counselling under my belt and I try and help people with their problems as much as possible. Every time I help a person, they see it as I do it. Its partially true, I do help them. Why I do it is a different story. Christ. So even though I help people,  share fruits do I still make it about me. Of course I do. Do I still try and do what I can to not make it about me? I do. WHY DO WE MAKE IT ABOUT US?

We as Christians tend to do it all the time. Making anything about me is easy. Whether its you doing the preaching, doing the teaching, being prophetic, doing something good for someone else, whatever it may be. We unintentionally want a piece of that glory. For example, I had a pastor that I know that would do prophecies on people on every service. You are probably looking at me an be like “Matt, that is normal.” Possibly so. However, is it a secret expectation that we set on ourselves that we have to speak prophetically after service? I mean, its not a bad thing, but it also can be your identity.

Everyone has an identity. Everyone is seen as something. When you are reading this, make sure that you have you identity in Christ Jesus. He may give you gift of teaching, pastoring, whatever. However, the gifts that you have make sure it is for to glorify your Creator. So when you do so, make it about him. If you have any comments, questions, insults, please leave them below.

Lose Yourself

Now I know what you are thinking, Eminem? For starters, I am definitely not a white rapper (or a rapper at that). I don’t live in the lovely city of Detroit and I don’t have “the style” he has. If you can remember the movie, he doesn’t necessarily do it the first time beating everyone in a rap battle, but the second time.  Until then, he had to work on himself, improve on his rapping skills, and get back to battle rap. I guess you can call it a come back?

2 Timothy 2:23 says, Don’t have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels

In the movie there was a lot of mindless drama to prove that Eminem (or Bunny…Bunny Rabbit) can fight (whoopie). To defend his people. Some of the things that he fought over were a girl, fighting over him fighting with the guy who was with Bunny’s girl, and fighting because they are rivals. In the end, its dumb, right?

Lately, I was doing this to every non-believer lately. Then, I looked at the verse in Matthew 7:6. Jesus said: Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

What I was doing is arguing truth to people and therefore I was losing myself in the process. It says in Phillipians 4:7 …Guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. I wasn’t doing that. As Christians, we need to remember that we need to be defenders of Christ but remember not to be angry in the process. It is so easy to slip, so cut it off and try it again with a gentle approach. What I was doing was focused on winning an argument instead of focusing in Jesus. It can be very hard to be in His mindset sometimes. We take on the problems that God has and we make it our own. It shouldn’t be ours, it should be His. Evedentally, it is about God, and about them. That is our goal is to save them.

Proverbs 1 25:33  because you have ignored all my counsel and would have none of my reproof,I also will laugh at your calamity;I will mock when terror strikes you, when terror strikes you like a storm and your calamity comes like a whirlwind, when distress and anguish come upon you. Then they will call upon me, but I will not answer; they will seek me diligently but will not find me. Because they hated knowledge and did not choose the fear of the Lord, would have none of my counsel and despised all my reproof, therefore they shall eat the fruit of their way, and have their fill of their own devices. For the simple are killed by their turning away, and the complacency of fools destroys them; but whoever listens to me will dwell secure and will be at ease, without dread of disaster.

Now that we have worked with them, we have to come and realize that they are broken and upset. If you come across with a person who is angry with the truth that you are speaking, they will mock you and they will bully. The job that you have is to just speak truth. If they ignore it, its out of your hands. For that, you just have to stop what you are doing, be still, and continue walking in the path of Jesus.

Anyway, the final thing to say about this is to pray for those people. Prayer works. When faced with someone who is a non believer, ask what is holding them back from God. It could be not doing what they want, it could be the church hurt them, it could be that they’re mad at their circumstances, or it could be that they don’t want to follow “the rules of Christianity.” I really hope and pray for in the future that they get to know God on a personal level. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. For that, I want to wish the best for everyone. Jesus. Please leave a comment on the page after you finish reading.