Hang on, He Will Be There

Psalm 18:6-19

6  In my distress I called upon the Lord;
to my God I cried for help.
From his temple he heard my voice,
and my cry to him reached his ears.

7  Then the earth reeled and rocked;
the foundations also of the mountains trembled
and quaked, because he was angry.
8  Smoke went up from his nostrils,t
and devouring fire from his mouth;
glowing coals flamed forth from him.
9  He bowed the heavens and came down;
thick darkness was under his feet.
10  He rode on a cherub and flew;
he came swiftly on the wings of the wind.
11  He made darkness his covering, his canopy around him,
thick clouds dark with water.
12  Out of the brightness before him
hailstones and coals of fire broke through his clouds.

13  The Lord also thundered in the heavens,
and the Most High uttered his voice,
hailstones and coals of fire.
14  And he sent out his arrows and scattered them;
he flashed forth lightnings and routed them.
15  Then the channels of the sea were seen,
and the foundations of the world were laid bare
at your rebuke, O Lord,
at the blast of the breath of your nostrils.

16  He sent from on high, he took me;
he drew me out of many waters.
17  He rescued me from my strong enemy
and from those who hated me,
for they were too mighty for me.
18  They confronted me in the day of my calamity,
but the Lord was my support.
19  He brought me out into a broad place;
he rescued me, because he delighted in me.

Everyone has a point in their life that they feeling like they need to hang on. Everyone has a story. Everyone has people in their lives that has hurt them and everyone feels let down. I have been let down numerous times. Yesterday, I was talking to my aunt. She was angry with me because I asked her to talk to me about money because  I was too injured to work. She was mad and she made up stories to my dad. I will never have a relationship with my dad again because of her. It will be harder to forgive my dad because of the negativity of my aunt.

To be honest, I don’t know how non Christians do it, they have similar issues that they have to go through and they don’t have a savior to pray to. I personally had some devilish thoughts. I thought of death…again. Not that I am suicidal, I  just didnt want to feel the pain anymore.

Here is a word of advice for people that might have similar issues:

HOLD ON – There is great things that will happen in your life. There is a God so great that loves you and the issues that you have are so minute compared to the abuse, the torture, the death of our savior our Lord Christ Jesus.

PRAY – Pray for that person, even though that they hurt you chances are that they are hurting

TALK TO PEOPLE – Feelings are supposed to be real. Be real with people about your feelings and work together to get you at a place that you need to be.

I really don’t understand how I am still living but I do know this, I am so grateful for the people that God has in my life. I still want to thank my Pastor Phil, and I want to thank my new mentor Randy for being there when I am emotionally unstable.

Anyone who reads this, please hold on. Talk to people and open up. Lets be the body that we are called to be. I appreciate the comments.


Identity Crisis

Everyone wants or wanted to be someone. What did you want to be when you grow up? I wanted to be a teacher. When I was in school, I wanted to be a teacher. I was a little teachers pet. I thought it was a fun job looking people and I wanted to teach. I got along with MOST of the teachers in elementary school. However, when I was in high school, my motivation switched. I started to get into trouble, did not care about school and it would just be awesome for not me to put up with the teachers that I did have. I was seen as a “problem.” My friends all had identities too. A lot of them smoked weed, a lot of them drank, a lot of them had family issues, and a lot of them were either thugs or toy thugs.


Now that I am a Christian, I try and reflect as much as possible to my creator. However, I have tendencies to try and make it about me. For example, I have counselling under my belt and I try and help people with their problems as much as possible. Every time I help a person, they see it as I do it. Its partially true, I do help them. Why I do it is a different story. Christ. So even though I help people,  share fruits do I still make it about me. Of course I do. Do I still try and do what I can to not make it about me? I do. WHY DO WE MAKE IT ABOUT US?

We as Christians tend to do it all the time. Making anything about me is easy. Whether its you doing the preaching, doing the teaching, being prophetic, doing something good for someone else, whatever it may be. We unintentionally want a piece of that glory. For example, I had a pastor that I know that would do prophecies on people on every service. You are probably looking at me an be like “Matt, that is normal.” Possibly so. However, is it a secret expectation that we set on ourselves that we have to speak prophetically after service? I mean, its not a bad thing, but it also can be your identity.

Everyone has an identity. Everyone is seen as something. When you are reading this, make sure that you have you identity in Christ Jesus. He may give you gift of teaching, pastoring, whatever. However, the gifts that you have make sure it is for to glorify your Creator. So when you do so, make it about him. If you have any comments, questions, insults, please leave them below.

Ignorance Test

There is a lot of ignorant people in the world. In fact, if we are honest we all have ignorant tendencies. I myself am terrible at this because I have ignorant tendencies myself. I have a habit of speaking my mind and sometimes I don’t care how the other person will be affected.

For example, for a couple weeks I presume I havent been feeling myself. With that being said, I took it out on my family. My grandmother has been through a lot when it comes to her son. I have been given my grandmother money for rent and she gives it to her son. Her son already owes her about 1800 and she decided to give him more. I got angry because she has a habit of complaining to me and complaining to everyone else that I don’t pay enough and that he takes money from her. To make a long story short I let my ignorance take over and I have said some things that I wish I hadn’t said because I should not have been angry at her in the first place. In conclusion, there is one example of ingorance.

However, unconsciously we have a lot of ignorant behavior that we all have. I probably can point out a lot individually. Below, I want you to read qualities that I see from others and myself and see which ones you find that compare to you.

Ignorance is…

– pointing out others issues and not willing to look at your own

– not loving

– not willing to take constructive criticism

– not wanting to learn

– hurting others to get ahead

– getting into arguments that are not beneficial to anyone

– correct people publicly

– gossip

– cutting yourself off from the world and not letting others in your circle

– thinking you are better than the person next to you

– being selfish

– being prideful

– your sin

These are just examples that I had on the top of my head. If you fit any of these, you probably have some ignorance. There is hope however, prayer. Pray for forgiveness and ask God how to stay humble, loving, and caring for others. However, there is a time and a place where you can be loving and caring while bringing people closer to God. That is with relationship. Be willing to relate to them and give them your heart, and do not feed the ignorant behavior.

So that is my blog, if you have any questions, comments, or if there is anything I missed message me. Thank you in advance for reading.