If You were…

If you were to change something about yourself, what would you change. Leave a comment and explain why.

Are You That Big?

So I was reading 1 Samuel 17 or popularly known as David and Goliath. If you don’t know the story of David and Goliath, Saul was panicking because this 9ft monster of a dude was attempting to take over Saul and his servants. Saul was desperate and he needed someone to fight for him. He didn’t find anyone except a boy named David. Saul asked David which weapon he wanted to take. Not a sword, not a spear, he decided to take a sling and five stones. Made Saul nervous. However, David ends up that David killed Goliath and everyone was shocked.

For me, my Goliath is my dad. He is a very hard person to get along with and you lose yourself when you are with him. He tries and bring you down and so you try and fight. I used anger, yelling, snitching to my step mom. No weapon will work, his armor is wrapped in his anger and bitterness. The only thing that can penetrate his armor is love. Gods love. Love needs to be my weapon of choice.

In the story, after knocking down Goliath with the sling and stones, he then killed Goliath. After showing my dad love, I can kill the evilness inside him. However, in order for you to change that you have to change yourself. You need to

1. Pray. Pray for a way for forgiveness. Pray for humility. Pray for your enemies.

2. Forgive them. Maybe saying it to them or just letting go the pain.

3. Letting go. Make sure that you know what the future is going to bring for you. Getting over the obstacle that is holding you back is the key for you to kill your Goliath.

This is not telling you to kill a person, this is telling you to kill out the negativity so it can have a better outcome for.someone else, not just you.

What is your Goliath? What is your barrier that seems impossible? Have you prayed?

One of My Specks

I tend to read stuff people post on Twitter a lot. I like to see where peoples heads are at when it comes go Christianity. I read comments for a while that keeps saying #oomf (one of my followers) now, usually it isn’t a positive thing they say towards others and it usually puts others down. Another things people do is “blaaah blaaah blaaah @(insert Twitter name here) so everyone else who isn’t following the other person can say something about the other person.

Matthew 7:3-5 Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye?
Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You Hypocrite…

Do you smell the hypocrisy? Basque in it. The aroma smells terrible. Especially when there is something wrong with yourself clearly and you don’t acknowledge it. The main thief is that it easier to go to someone else and talk about them. Simple isn’t it?

What makes us talk about someone else? Because we are selfish individuals that have issues. We love to see the flaws in others. Maybe even they don’t fit up to our standards.

Why does that bother us? Because we have this speck, this judgmental side on us. I do it, and I always feel silly afterwards. Therefore I need to repent of my sins.

How do we change this? Pray how to get on their level. Being on their level (finding out what’s going on it whatever) is always a good option. Figure out why they are angry, upset, or swearing ect. Really get to know that person. It could be a life changer for then. Ask my good friend Timothy Jones.

What if someone is wrong though? How do I correct it properly? You do this by talking with that person IN PRIVATE. It’s extremely important and more bold that way. If you don’t have any guts to say it to then don’t say it at all. Of course, their needs to be wisdom in it but altogether you need to talk in private.

Thanks for the read. If their is any more to add, let me know. I just winged this blog, I will do a follow up soon.

Beginning of the End

My last post, if you’ve been reading was a letter to my dad. It was basically a bunch of hurt that I have been going through. However, in that post I was focusing a lot of it on me. Why? Because mostly because I am holding on a lot of hurt. That hurt can even be idolatry. I also hold onto a lot of pride, me thinking that I am right.

1 John 2:16 for all that is in the world, the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride from possessions is not from the Father, but from this world.

This doesn’t even have to be materialistic things, but internal thoughts that you hold onto. I hold onto the pain from my dad for years and I really have a tough time letting it go. There is reasons why that I have this problem, but I know the steps on how to forgive.

1) Pray

2) Say to whoever has hurt you that you forgive them

3) let the pain go and focus on the future

So let’s start with prayer. Let God show you how to forgive. This might take a while since you aren’t going to forgive overnight. (or maybe you do) Ask God how to forgive someone that has hurt you.

Saying to the person that I forgive you. This could take years to do. If a person has hurt you in the past, generally there will be a lot of mending and a lot of prayer. Once this is finally taken care of God will show you what it truly means to forgive that person.

Next step is letting the pain go and focus on the future. This could mean parting from that person or to work with that person, whatever is best for you. The future will be revealed to you in Gods time so if that means not talking with them, that’s great. If that means working with them, that’s great too. Be patient, God will reveal your future.

I myself will be working on this for quite sometime and I am still not over it. If you are trying to forgive, you aren’t alone. It will take some time. If I had missed anything could you please let me know. Also, is there is anything that you want to add, or need help with or liked, please comment.

Dear “dad”

If you don’t know already, a little bit about me I want a family more than anything. I have a father and a mother and I don’t really talk to either one of them. Only thing is, I have more respect for my mother than my father. One thing I surely need to work on is to forgive him. With that being said, I really want to show him a little about me.

Hey dad,

     It’s your son Matt. I just want to say how thankful I can know who you are. I wish you would love me. I am not sure if you do or just love the thought of me bit the truth is ever since I have remembered you, we haven’t been on good terms. I really wish we can make things right.
     For years I have been working things out in my mind, what do you really know about me? What do you know about me? Have you ever been there when you said you were? My mom doesn’t give me a straight answer about you and neither do you. Did you ever want to see me when I was younger? I have been bullied, drank, started a lot of beef with a lot of people and I haven’t been able to face you about the issues that I have with you. I haven’t been able to forgive you and u am still working on it.
     I know Jesus now, he is the reason why I live. If you only knew that I was contemplating suicide because of the way you treated me. I was unsure that you love me. But than again, I was wrong. I but an unhealthy dependence on you. You were supposed to be there, but I am supposed to depend on Jesus. I have a father in heaven, he made me and have a plan for me. He knew that you weren’t going to be in my life.
    With that being said, even though that I am angry with you, I am going to do my best to honor you. By doing so, I am going to love Jesus. Through Him, I am going to love him more
Another way that I will honor you is to not be like you. I will not do the same mistake as you. I will take care of all my kids and I will have one wife. I will be patient for my wife and I won’t do everything that you do.
    You did show me things, you showed me how to be a father at a young age. I know I can take care of kids. I know I can be a father. Even though that I hated babysitting, I have learned that it helped me be a responsible adult, even at the early age of fourteen.
    Again I pray for you, I pray that you love your family more and I pray that you don’t let every little thing get to you. Glad I have met you and I wish we had a good relationship.

Sincerely your son,

Matt

p.s it took me a lot to write out what I did, this is to show you how much I care even when you don’t care about me.

Jesus called us to love our enemies. My enemy is my own self; my father. Its taking tons of prayer to get this far in my walk with Christ. I can only trust what Jesus is doing and go further. If anyone that reads this is struggling with a relationship, I encourage them to pray for that person. Part of loving your enemies is praying for them. There always is hope, even when it seems hopeless Jesus is the way, truth, and the life. Because of him you are free from anger and from things that make you upset. With that being said, ask him what it means to forgive.

I encourage you after reading this comment, and don’t be afraid go ask questions.

Death to friendship

To my "former best friend," even though that we are not on good terms I want you to know that I will always care for you. 

If anyone knows me personally I was an angry person. My dad cut out on me for basically my whole life. I didn’t know who to look up to and I was still messed up as a teenager. In fact, to a degree I am still a bit messed up now. With that being said, I seen my former best friend as a brother. We hung out everyday and he was such a friend to me that we helped each other in the hardest situations. It turned out that we liked the same girl. I respected him by giving the girl to him. He basically cut off the friendship. The friendship went downhill. I wasn’t perfect, I was gossiping to the girl about him and that ended with him and I getting into a major argument that resulted in me going to the hospital, then major drinking. I felt alone.

Proverbs 20:6 Many say that they are loyal friends, but who can find one who is truly reliable?

I was dependent to the point where I didn’t know who God was, and I didn’t know who I was and why I was in the mess that I was. I thought for the longest time since we were so close that it meant a lot to him this friendship. But then I thought, I want to get back at him. Would revenge be the best option?

Romans 12:19-21 Dear friends, never take revenge, leave the righteous anger to God. For the scriptures say, “I take revenge, I will pay them back” says the Lord. Instead “If your enemies are hungry feed them, if they are thirsty, give them something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals of shame on their heads.” Don’t let evil conquer you, but conquer evil by doing good.

When I was on my drinking binge, I was trying to find the best way to get revenge on him. To me, he seemed more like an enemy. I was so consumed on my hurt that I wasn’t focused on doing anything nice for him.

However, when I was in the process finding out who Jesus was, I started trying to do good things for him by helping him move. I sacrificed myself to help him out. I ended up seeing his new place and I did help him out. After that was done, he basically said thank you and send me home and that was the end of the night. When the friendship was finally called off I felt annoyed of the baggage that he was  trying to put on to me. It was like he wasn’t even listening to me anymore. I almost did it in a revenge way and just let him have it, but he wouldn’t have listened to me anyway. Therefore, I did it the most loving way possible. It ended up me feeling numb and I was totally upset that I ended it.

The moral of the story is that you will be so consumed in being for a person that it is your main focus. I didn’t trust God and I didn’t trust myself. I trusted my friend. If you put your trust in man, you will fail every time.

Proverbs 20:6 Many will say that they are loyal friends, but who can find one who is truly reliable? My answer back is this, God is the same before the trial and after the trial. If I put my full trust in God everything is fine in the end. I encourage anyone who reads this to comment. This could have been the end of my life if I didn’t find God. And thank you for reading

Good Friday – Which Seat Will You Take?

Tons of people have heard of Rebecca Black. From her song that went viral for a girl trying to sing teenage things. For this teenage girl, the road to fame has taken her a wrong turn. Her youtube video (Friday) made her notorious on the internet and made her have a bad name. People told her to self mutilate herself, said consider getting an eating disorder so she would be pretty, and a bunch of nasty things that ignorance would say to others.
How should we as Christians react to this?

Mark 15:18-19 And they began to salute him, “Hail, King of the Jews!” And they were striking his head with a reed, spitting on him and kneeling down in homage to him.

Now I will tell you what I am not doing, I am not comparing the two. However, this girl is being spat on, mocked, and she has such a brave face on and is willing to keep doing what she is doing.

Why is this important to me?

As a Christian, I learned that we also could be mocked for believing in our God and our savior Jesus. That is all part of the package. We have basically freely given our lives to the high of most high. Since we have given our lives to Jesus, we expect  hurt, made fun of, mocked. However, looking at what Jesus did is so amazing that none of it matters. Same with Rebecca Black, she keeps singing her song and because of that she sees her reward as making music for her to enjoy.

Psalm 89:49 – Remember, O Lord, how your servants are mocked, and know I bear in my heart the insults of all the many nations

So the question is are you ready for the fight of your life? Are you to be mocked for believing in something so great that the jokes cam seem overwhelming? What are you worried about, Jesus is on your side. Let Jesus be your comfort.

Please comment and tell me what you think